Mexico Mission Trip 2015

I went on a mission trip to Mexico and for just that one week it was an unforgettable experience and I’ve learned so much from the people there. Our week focused on prayer, which is the Primary work of God’s people. (cmalliance.org) Preparing for Mexico, I found it quite tedious and my heart was never really in it. However, as we arrived, God slowly changed my heart. The people I met, the hands I shook, the prayers that were said, the testimonies; every single moment opened my eyes. The boldness, the hospitality, and the faith they had, even with a language barrier I could still feel God working.

Every morning we would all gather and pray and share things we’ve learned. It was nerve wrecking at first but as the week went on I found myself looking forward to it.  I felt convicted, even, because I always thought of prayer as a chore and something I didn’t have time for but I’ve learned that prayer is such an easy and simple thing to do. Something I didn’t need to complain about. I cared so much about what people would say and think because that was the norm here. In Mexico, people had no fear, they didn’t care what people thought, and it was as if they were alone with God. Prayer is a way to build a relationship and communicate with God. It’s from your heart to his so why should I mind what people might say or think?

Although only a few hours away from home, this culture, and my experiences have impacted me in a way I never thought it would. Just as I was encouraged, I also want to encourage everyone to continuously be praying for missions, that every nation will come to know and worship God. Maybe pray for the courage to partake in world missions if that is what you are called to. Whoever and wherever you are, you can partake in missions through prayer, through giving, and through going.

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Or is it just me?

There I go, down the hole.

Deeper and deeper I fall into it.

Your words, the memories, your touch, push me down farther.

I can no longer get out.

But it’s ok.

I just hope you’re falling too.

Where has time gone?

Fear, worry, excitement, these are the things I, a junior, am going through. Sure, this is the last year for state testing but SAT’s and all these other tests are waiting around the corner. Questions like “What do you plan to do? Where are you headed? What do you want to take?” flood my brain. The people around me, my loved ones are all grown up and headed towards their dreams and making them realities. People are going to work or graduating, and in the midst of all this, I can’t help but think “Where has time gone?”. The innocent days of playing tag and sliding down slides, are they all just memories now?

College is becoming so clear and I’ve decided to study in New York. So, yes, that means I will be leaving safe and comfortable California to the hustling and bustling streets of New York. I’m excited. Many tears will be shed but the city is calling me. This isn’t a superficial desire of wanting to be in “the land of dreams”, it’s real and I’m prepared for it. The future is scary but that’s what makes it so exciting.

So, my friends, wherever you are in your life, always look forward. Cherish your loved ones, be discerning, and have absolutely no hesitations. :)

A much delayed Manila post.

Just wanted to share a few pics that I took on our trip to Manila, PI. Better late than never right? ;)

This is the end.

There are those times when you just know it’s time to stop. You’ve wasted all your time, thoughts, and tears over this person. It may be hard to let go but you have to. If you don’t, it’ll just lead to more heart break and heart ache. They’re not worth it. You have to be strong. Enough is enough.

“I…I can’t take it anymore. I’ve cried enough, hurt enough, and I just can’t take it anymore. Too many times have I fallen back but this time..this time will be different. Too many years have been wasted over you. I honestly don’t know why I loved you and why I continue to. Go ahead. Go to her. And her, and her, and her. Patiently I have waited, but I was always your second choice. I understand that you care for me, but in my heart, soul, and mind I know that there will always be someone you’ll choose before me. So, I’m letting you go.”

Confessions of a Highschooler

So as most of you know, my sister is going away to college this year. It had me thinking about my future and where I want to go. I mean I’ve thought about it since 8th grade but the closer I get to graduating, it’s become a little more serious. I do and have always wanted to go straight to a 4-year college of some sort and move on with my master’s. There are so many career choices that I would LOVE to do but do I go to college with a major that can help me more financially in the future, or with a major I truly enjoy no matter what the outcome is? I know, I know, I still have 2 years left (thank goodness) but I guess with my sister’s leaving, I feel a bit more pressured. Maybe the questions of what I want to do, need to back off a bit. *sigh*

ON A LIGHTER NOTE, lol, I’m kind of an organization freak. Like I organize but I don’t clean. (If that makes any sense) And sure I’m sad that my sis is leaving, but I get the whole room to myself and organize it to my heart’s desire. Plus, can you say entire closet? Sorry beeg. :P

I’m going home…

I’m going to the Philippines! You guys can’t even fathom how excited I am. I haven’t gone home in the past 2 years. Sure, there may be many faults about the place but if you were born and raised there, you’re happy because you’re home. I miss the people, the food, the atmosphere, the malls (of course), but most of all I miss my family. I will be posting photos! (I’m going in July so it might be a while) P.I. here I come! Image

No doubt about it.

A year ago from now, I wrote about a girl. A girl that’s beautiful, smart, funny, and amazing. That girl is my sister. If you’d like to read the post I wrote go here:

https://eraposas.wordpress.com/2013/10/06/suuupperr-belated-birthday-story/

It was her birthday yesterday (March 12) and not a day goes by that I don’t thank God for giving me a sister like her. A lot of things have changed since last year (that’s kind of inevitable) but something big is happening this 2014. You see, she turned 18. 18…the big 1-8..the year she goes to college. We’re all excited for her don’t get me wrong, but I just can’t help feeling sad. We’ve been together our whole lives and now we are gonna be separated. I’m really gonna miss her. No doubt about it. 

Beej,

Promise me you’ll be safe ok? You know I love you and try not to worry so much. I’m always a phone call away. Happy Birthday sis. :)