Psalm 111:9

“He ordained his covenant forever.”

Charles Spurgeon continues to amaze me. Our devotion this morning was on the covenant of God. As a child I grew up hearing that word “covenant”, but I never quite understood it completely. Spurgeon says, “The covenant is a treasury of wealth, a granary of food, a fountain of life, a storehouse of salvation, a charter of peace, and a haven of joy.”

But was a covenant made to restrict us? To “tie us down”? To punish us? Many people think there is no freedom in conditions and restrictions yet, there is even more freedom in the proper restrictions. For example a fish, once it gets out of the aquarium for a second it thinks it’s free but soon it’s gasping for air.

So what exactly is the “Covenant of God”? A covenant consists mainly of four things.

Promise, Law, Agreement, and Witness. 

The covenant is a promise. It is a promise of love, hope, protection, and blessing. A promise that God will not reject you or leave you even if you have done wrong things.

The covenant has laws. Within the promise of all these things there are laws. Think of it this way, a covenant is like a marriage. If you want your marriage to thrive, you must stay within the laws of a marriage. If you break your covenant, you must face the consequences. Yes, there are promises, but you will experience pain if you break it.

So a covenant can’t be just one person right? There has to be 2 parties involved. Which brings us to the agreement. The agreement is us saying “Okay, God I will go where you lead me and I will abide by your covenant.” Take Abraham for example, God called him and his family out of Ur in Genesis 12.
“The LORD had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.” Back in the old testament a covenant or agreement was always made between a “higher” and a “lesser”. They called it a Suzerian-Vassal covenant. Which was particularly made between a king and a subject. A king promised blessings to whoever agreed to the covenant. A higher to a lesser, a suzerian to a vassal, and God to his people. 

Lastly, a covenant has to have a witness. Take again marriage, there has to be witnesses in a marriage as there should be in a covenant. Or Abraham in the Land of Ur. God said, take you, yourself and your family out. There you have Abraham’s family as witnesses.

Even with all these things you must not forget that Grace is the basis of this covenant. “Grace is the basis, the condition, the strain, the bulwark, the foundation, and the capstone”.

Back then a covenant was often sealed by severing an animal. The 2 parties would pass between pieces of animals and would mean both parties had to keep these commitments and if either failed to do so, they would be like the pieces of animals. However, in Genesis 15 when the ceremony was happening, a smoking furnace and a flaming torch, representing God, walked among the pieces. It would then be Abraham’s turn but God caused a sleep to fall upon Abraham so that he would not be able to pass between the two halves of the animals. Meaning the fulfillment of the covenant fell to God alone.

Which also means that if Abraham broke his promise, he would not be punished. This covenant was unconditional. God made promises to Abraham that required nothing of him. Which brings us back to the basis of this covenant. Grace and grace alone. :)

The Highest Good

As some of you know, my family devotes our morning breakfast to just sit down, have some coffee, and talk. Sometimes it’s completely ridiculous (and with filipino parents that’s inevitable), but other times it’s really thought-provoking and/or encouraging. This morning, my sister brought up a “Ted Talks” that she watched and it was about how a person with an addiction is usually tossed into jail or some sort of solitary confinement. The speaker shared that this method doesn’t actually help the person in fact it just stills the addiction for a moment but once the person is released, a single thing can make it come back as before (or even worse).

So how do you deal with addictions? Or on a more general view, how do you deal with something you yearn for constantly?

As a family we concluded with this. When someone suddenly takes something away, you are left empty and wanting to fill that void again right? Instead of reverting back to whatever it was, you fill that void with a “higher good”, if that makes sense. For instance, family, relationships, these are all higher goods which are, indeed, very helpful and fulfilling. However there is an even higher good, that is, Jesus Christ. Everlasting and eternal, able to fill any void you have. So yearn for him, and nothing else, seek him, and nothing else. For he is where you will find true joy and happiness, more than you have ever felt with anything. Whether that is with relationships, drugs, money, anything.

Find these in him, grow, and make him your center. Make him, as the topic suggests, your addiction. ;P

Realizations and Growth.

I don’t know where to start…

We are individuals, separate. I wouldn’t have realized that if we had continued like this. As much as I denied it, I was losing sight and focus on my own being. Dependent you could say. But that’s just who I am, when I get mad, I get really mad, when I like something, I really, really do and I realized I needed balance. I do thank you for guiding us back to God but was that really enough? I slipped into this “us” mentality and didn’t realize that we were, in fact, individuals. Yes, we needed to grow and prepare our hearts, but by ourselves. They didn’t shut down the whole idea of a possibility that we would be something someday, but the timing was not right and I won’t deny that my emotions got the best of me. You and I talked about being open and how the future is uncertain. 80% to be specific, but that 20% is still important. Time changes people, changes things, and what if one of us has waited and the other hasn’t?

So, what I’m trying to say is, God does have a plan that is much greater than ours. Grow individually, love him first, and focus on your path. Whatever he has planned, it’s the best you know that. Openness is important, and thinking that this is it doesn’t allow for God to work in our lives. I’m happy for all the things we went through but we need to focus on ourselves. As much as it hurts, this is needed. There are greater things planned for you and I, I know that for sure. I will keep moving forward, and I pray you do too, towards God and his will for your life.

A stream of thoughts.

Never in my life did I expect for this to happen. For any of this to happen actually. There’s nothing that I’ve done, that I regret when it comes to you. Liking you for that long, I don’t regret it at all. But somehow, I feel like you regret not seeing me till now. Was it difficult? Yes. Was it long? Yes. Am I mad? No. We all go through trials and obstacles. We do. But look, there’s always sunshine after the rain right? I’ve said it before, those 5 years was my storm, but now, all I see is sunshine.

I asked myself, where and when exactly did I fall in love with you. For sure and without a doubt it was in Mexico but surprisingly, it wasn’t one exact moment. I fell in love with you little by little. From every “good morning” to “good night”, to you serving God in their worship team, sharing your testimony, to even just kicking your shoe at the convenience store (loll, sorry). That whole week, especially friday, was so special. It’s an unforgettable experience that I will never forget. Oh goodness, it sounds so cliche bwahah, “falling in love at a foreign place” but meh, oh well.

So, you made a pledge, and now it’s my turn.

I, Eunice, will promise to love God and allow him to mold my heart before I give it fully to you. For you, I’ll wait as long as it takes for us to both be ready. Together or not, I will do my best to show you how much I love you, whether it’s giving you to someone else or through the rest of my life. I promise to have faith, trust, and patience because I love and care for you so much. So, let the waiting begin eh?

p.s. I love you.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

It’s different. Countless times, I’ve dreamed about the day when you would finally come around. Now it’s here…I don’t feel giddy, foolish, or light and airy (if that makes sense). It’s realer. Tangible. Memorable. Substantial. I know I’m not ready for a relationship but if there was some reason why I couldn’t let you go for the past 5 years, does that mean something? Whatever the future holds for us, it’s all in God’s hands. If that means waiting for 5 more years, I will. You are too special to me to let this go.


If for any reason we don’t work out, I want you to remember this.

Those moments and memories we’ve shared have been some of the happiest times I’ve experienced. The revelation that you too, liked me, you don’t know how happy I was. However, if time separates us or even distance, I want you to know that you will always be my best friend. Wherever we may be, I will always be here for you. And if God has prepared someone else for you, I pray she will love and cherish you as much as I do. I hope she will appreciate the way you care for your family, the way you get so passionate when playing guitar, or how devoted you can be to anything. I hope she doesn’t overlook the little things you do to make her happy. I pray she puts God first in the relationship and I hope she loves you with all her heart as much as I would. I only wish you the best because I know you would do the same. Meilleur ami, never forget this.

Mexico Mission Trip 2015

I went on a mission trip to Mexico and for just that one week it was an unforgettable experience and I’ve learned so much from the people there. Our week focused on prayer, which is the Primary work of God’s people. ( Preparing for Mexico, I found it quite tedious and my heart was never really in it. However, as we arrived, God slowly changed my heart. The people I met, the hands I shook, the prayers that were said, the testimonies; every single moment opened my eyes. The boldness, the hospitality, and the faith they had, even with a language barrier I could still feel God working.

Every morning we would all gather and pray and share things we’ve learned. It was nerve wrecking at first but as the week went on I found myself looking forward to it.  I felt convicted, even, because I always thought of prayer as a chore and something I didn’t have time for but I’ve learned that prayer is such an easy and simple thing to do. Something I didn’t need to complain about. I cared so much about what people would say and think because that was the norm here. In Mexico, people had no fear, they didn’t care what people thought, and it was as if they were alone with God. Prayer is a way to build a relationship and communicate with God. It’s from your heart to his so why should I mind what people might say or think?

Although only a few hours away from home, this culture, and my experiences have impacted me in a way I never thought it would. Just as I was encouraged, I also want to encourage everyone to continuously be praying for missions, that every nation will come to know and worship God. Maybe pray for the courage to partake in world missions if that is what you are called to. Whoever and wherever you are, you can partake in missions through prayer, through giving, and through going.


Or is it just me?

There I go, down the hole.

Deeper and deeper I fall into it.

Your words, the memories, your touch, push me down farther.

I can no longer get out.

But it’s ok.

I just hope you’re falling too.

Where has time gone?

Fear, worry, excitement, these are the things I, a junior, am going through. Sure, this is the last year for state testing but SAT’s and all these other tests are waiting around the corner. Questions like “What do you plan to do? Where are you headed? What do you want to take?” flood my brain. The people around me, my loved ones are all grown up and headed towards their dreams and making them realities. People are going to work or graduating, and in the midst of all this, I can’t help but think “Where has time gone?”. The innocent days of playing tag and sliding down slides, are they all just memories now?

College is becoming so clear and I’ve decided to study in New York. So, yes, that means I will be leaving safe and comfortable California to the hustling and bustling streets of New York. I’m excited. Many tears will be shed but the city is calling me. This isn’t a superficial desire of wanting to be in “the land of dreams”, it’s real and I’m prepared for it. The future is scary but that’s what makes it so exciting.

So, my friends, wherever you are in your life, always look forward. Cherish your loved ones, be discerning, and have absolutely no hesitations. :)

A much delayed Manila post.

Just wanted to share a few pics that I took on our trip to Manila, PI. Better late than never right? ;)